Friday, May 14, 2010

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I haven’t been writing for a while and I realise that’s not good. My voice is here, the child is here again and to hear her voice I must write, that’s why I couldn’t write for so long – I denied her voice.—Vicky said when she did that Reiki session that my problem was about communication. I have tried so hard (I thought) to connect with my child and all I had to do was listen to her voice – stopping second guessing her and trusting her. And it feels so good to be writing, it feels natural, no censorship I enjoy it so much—I don’t know what I am writing -It is a stream of consciousness thing – after all the child has had forty years of thinking but has rarely spoken- she has a lot to say – and it may be that I am talking utter rubbish but because it is honest and real it feels like it is Pulitzer prize material – but this honesty is the seed and from it will come work- hurray, hurray- I should have been doing this a long time ago- I have a lot to make up for- but I am not bitter – my journey has made it possible for me to be right where I am right now – happy!

Whether I make money with it or not I know this is something I will do for the rest of my life and at the same time I am healing my child, I am loving her, listening to her and giving her life – how easy it is in the end)

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